Therapy Journal Entry 3

I've been having the same dream night after night and while I'd like to ask my therapist what she thinks it means I refuse to be that cliche. I refuse to say "Dr. tell me what my dream means." That's just lame and I won't do it.

I keep dreaming that I'm in the jungle on an expedition looking for a lost tribe. Of course the term lost tribe is absolutely offensive because I doubt the tribe in my dream thinks of themselves as lost. They probably think of themselves as living in peace and would be irritated nosy outsiders invading their village. I'd ask them but I never actually find the "lost tribe" in my dream. I guess it's pretty obvious that my brain is searching for something but I wish it could be a little more obvious and have me searching in my dream for whatever it is I'm really searching for. Symbolism is a bitch.

But maybe I'm not looking for something. Maybe I'm hiding something. Hmm, interesting.

Anyway. I've seen my therapist 8 or 9 times now. I can't decide whether it's "helping" me or not but I am enjoying it. I guess if I'm enjoying it then that's help enough.