What's Going On

The subtitle of this entry was going to be Web 2.0 Michelle Style. And it was going to be about how confident I'm feeling and how excited I am about some new projects. It was going to be about the one year plan I've been working on and the business plan I've spend lots of time writing. Instead the subtitle of this entry is J. Brotherlove is a trend setter.

Though technically I didn't get fired I am now seriously part time employeed. My company has been having issues for months but the shit has hit the fan now. It was known that belts were going to be tightened and I was happily going along with it (it actual fit into the master plan that I was rocking) but there was not hint at just how tightly the belts were going to be pulled. My boss, being the goddess that she is, came into my office five minutes before 5:00 and told me just how many hours I won't be working from now on. She's a peach right?

Dude I wish I could suck it up and be like "this wasn't planned but I'm going to turn this into a great opportunity. I'm going to use the extra time to focus on my photography and my other projects. That was my goal anyway, work part time, pursue my own projects the rest of the time. Now it's just happening earlier. In the end it's going to be good because I can pusue my goals more aggresively now." Yeah I wish that's how I really felt. Instead I'm thinking that I probably need to get my resume updated and in shape so I can find another shitty job real quick cause I'm just a fucking failure and there are bills to be paid and making it on my own isn't going to happen.

I feel like such a faulure. I'm four months away from being 30 years old and I'm basically unemployed. I'm weeping like a little girl. Time to regroup.